The Unexpected Danger of Putting a Call on Hold

“Denise, there’s a call on line 1 for you. He wouldn’t give me his name and said ‘you’d know what he was calling about’.”

“Can’t you see I have my Do Not Disturb light on?” I replied. “Tell whoever it is I’m busy and I’ll call him back later.”

My assistant responded that the caller said he would hold until I was ready. I hated sales people who were that obnoxious and couldn’t hear “No” and I brushed her off impatiently with a “Fine, he can hold until I’m good and ready then!”

I went back to the project I was working on, aggravated at yet another interruption. I was behind the eight ball already on this day, with a to-do list longer than my arm and the end of the month looming ahead of me.

Years ago, my husband had asked me what I wanted for Christmas. Only half-jokingly, I had answered “Eight extra hours a day so I can catch up on what I always have undone at the end of each day!” He bought me an Ipod instead, commenting that if I had more hours I would likely just try to fit more in on my schedule. I remembered that I needed to try to find time to upload some music for relaxation onto my Ipod and wondered if there was a teenager to whom I could outsource that task.

As I was turning out the light to leave the office, late that night, I noticed that the hold light was blinking on my phone. I picked it up and said impatiently, “This is Denise. Who is this?”

The voice on the other end of the line said, “It’s your life. I’ve been waiting for you.” I dropped the phone and started thinking about how long I had been avoiding this call.

For years, everything else came first, that is … everything that felt like an obligation or a distraction. Each time I heard the whisper of this call, I filled my hours with something – another project, another committee obligation, another anything – just so I wouldn’t have to sit with the voice of this caller who wanted me to look at the meaning of my life and why I was here. I avoided this call because I was afraid I would have to do something about what I heard if I listened.

How does the call of your life haunt you? Does it come from inside you on Sunday night when you start dreading your return to the office. Is it the pain in your heart when you hear your six year old daughter cry because you’re leaving on another business trip that will have you away from home more nights instead of tucking her in and reading The Velveteen Rabbit. Maybe your call sings out the familiar phrase “Do Something” when you read about the people who have lost everything in the latest weather disaster and you wish you could get that song out of your head and just get back to enjoying American Idol.

Calls are serious business. Responding to them is how we make something worthwhile out of our lives.

Not every call is a blockbuster, star-making epic. One or two of them may take up most of our time, but other more urgent calls weave their way into our lives from time to time.

Some of them, like being a nurturing, attentive parent or riding out the illness of a friend who needs our extra attention, engage our minds and our hearts and do not earn us accolades or cover photos on national magazines. Others draw us deep beneath the noise of social conventions and impact lives in unimaginable ways. It is neither the duration nor the visibility of the call that matters.

A life-changing call engages your ability to listen to both the subtle and obvious messages that rise within you and to see the nuance of something transcendent in the role before you. You answer the call through your willingness to move beyond merely filling the role or carrying out the duties a task requires by choosing to imbue your intention and your courage into your actions.

Not answering the call doesn’t make it go away. In fact, it often escalates its frequency or intensity to capture your attention. First pebbles, then stones, then boulders raining down on your life if you continue to ignore it. The call of your life is persistent and insistent. Thank goodness, really, that it doesn’t give in to our occasional wish for it to just leave us alone so we can get on with business as usual.

When you get serious about answering your call, mentors and supporters will appear. They will guide you with teachable moments and they will appeal to your innate human longing to be more than what you presently are.

As you move toward answering your call, they will help you draw upon your courage to step into the potential that sounds quietly in your dreams.

You have a choice, to just live your life, work a job, and fulfill a role or to commit to answering a series of worthy calls within this life of yours.

Listen carefully to the whispers and shouts of your calls and answer them with all the passion and cleverness at your disposal.

Use every means of introspection and mentorship available to you to help you find the courage to answer the call to make a difference – both where you find yourself now and in the place where your unique path takes you. After all, there’s a call for you on hold right now, all you have to do is answer it.

Integrity at Work

INTEGRITY AT WORK … Do Your People Care? No, REALLY, Care?

For two days, I’ve been trying to catch a little stray dog in my neighborhood without success. I’ve enlisted neighbors and tried to engage passing motorists to help as this scraggly little brown dog would dart away from me toward the traffic on a busy main thoroughfare near my home. Most everyone would shrug their shoulders after a little bit of chase when the dog kept running. He was scared and wily and seemed to evade every measure I tried. Several people said, “You’ve done all you can do. It’s not your problem. You tried.”

Truthfully, I felt helpless as neighbors went back to their Sunday activities, no interest in helping to save this hungry lost little dog. He ran down the alley where my car couldn’t go and I lost sight of him, although I patrolled the area for another hour. The more I heard from people, “It’s not your problem”, the more I started to wonder what allows people to look away from something they CAN do and close their hearts. Were their afternoon activities really that important in comparison? I couldn’t bear the thought of finding his body along the side of the road because “it’s not your problem, you tried.” I couldn’t stop thinking about that little dog and how to make sure he was safe.


How did “It’s not your problem” become an acceptable reason to stop caring?


This morning, I caught sight of him again on a side street near a park and slowed my car, trying to lure him toward me. Then from out of nowhere a truck appeared. On the side of it in bold red & black letters were these words “Integrity Roofing”.

The two young guys -Tony & Joe – saw what I was doing and joined in, trying to tempt him with little bites of cinnamon roll. Eventually, our efforts turned into an all-out chase, almost like the kind of caper you’d see in an action film. The dog was on the run, but Tony & Joe were in hot fast pursuit- sometimes on foot, sometimes in either their truck or my car. For more than half an hour, we three gave chase, around neighborhoods, into alleyways, through parks. Their worry was palpable as the dog veered again onto the main road in morning rush hour traffic. I already had my hands up to my mouth as I screamed. At the last possible second, the little dog darted off the road and back into the neighborhood. Both men said, we’re not giving up!


What would it mean for your people to demonstrate in everything they do “We’re not giving up!”


Finally, Tony managed to chase him into a yard and close the gate. Joe lay calmly on the pool deck coaxing the scared little stray toward him, until he could slip a leash I carry in my car around his neck. Eventually, this was the photo I captured of the sweet little dog nestled in their caring arms. His nails were bloody and ragged from all the running, his body was thin but his heart was full, knowing that these two men just wouldn’t give up on him.


This afternoon, they sent me a second photo with the text “Clean bath and he ate two bowls of food so far, he was hungry!” and then later “He’s doing so much better, I’ve introduced him to my dogs and now he’s not so scared.”

It’s so easy to slap a name like Integrity on a company, but when their people live it, in ways that have nothing to do with promoting their business, THAT’S when you know it’s real. Bravo, Integrity Roofing … your men display it in everything they do.

I’d love to know how YOUR people show they care in the world around them and how it reflects on your business. @DoWhatCounts

The Power of Revealing Who You Are and What You Want

 

“Finally.  At least now I don’t have to go on pretending anymore that it’s really what I wanted to be doing.  Now I can finally do what I WANT to do.”  That’s what my client Lon said after his business collapsed.

I wasn’t surprised that, after the initial shock wore off, what he felt was relief.  Pretending exacts a huge toll.

Lon had expended enormous amounts of energy over the prior two decades trying to fit in, trying to prove he deserved the accolades he had been desperately seeking, pursuing promotions and deals that he was certain would finally allow him to relax and be himself (but never did).  For years, he alternated between anxiety, depression and resentment – mostly because he was constantly trying to be a version of who he thought he should be to succeed.

Lon’s attempts at compartmentalization – keeping his “work self” and his “real self” distinct – and tamping down his real desires and his unique personality consumed vast amounts of energy.  He told me that “everyone” did this in the industry; “No one is their real self or gets to do what they really want.”  Despite thinking of himself as quite entrepreneurial, he had been trying desperately to be like everyone else, to fit in and not to stand out as “weird, eccentric or too far out there” in his approach to business.

He told me he was ready to get out there and find his next thing, before he got too stale.

When we next met, I asked Lon to outline what an ideal work situation would look like.  His responses told me that he was still operating from a view of what he thought he could get, not what he would actually consider ideal.  It took quite some time for Lon to get to the heart of what he really wanted.  From that place, he could begin to approach a new role – one where he could feel free to express his many talents and soar.

Moments like Lon’s firing, which look like disaster, actually contain the seeds of freedom.  Freedom to admit that what we were chasing so hard isn’t actually what we wanted at all.  It gives us permission to turn our attention toward what we DO want and to be who we really are.

There is a curious gratitude that arises in those newly diagnosed with cancer.  Not gratitude for the cancer, but for the permission to finally abandon assumed obligations and begin saying NO or YES.  The gratitude of being able to say “Screw this, I’m going to be who I am and do what I really want.”

The goal, however, is to develop the willingness to reveal who you are and what you want WITHOUT HAVING TO ENDURE A DISASTER to acquire that permission.

Most of us have, at one time or another, been in a relationship – at work or in our personal life – which began by pretending.  Pretending to like what we don’t, pretending to be more or less of something than we really are.  Accommodating the other, hoping that once we feel safe we can actually ask for what we really want.  We hide a part of ourselves, sometimes an essential part of ourselves.  Giving ourselves away for the sake of belonging and then awakening sometime later with the roaring anger of resentment or the paralyzing fear of being discovered as a fraud.

We often think that hiding who we are is the safe thing to do when being who we are is our greatest strength.  There are times when it’s crucial not to put ourselves in harm’s way and times when it’s important to bring ourselves fully forward or some essential fiber of who we are will wither.  Everyone has had to face this choice, more than once; when to show up and when to pull back.  Too often, we pull back; we hide, rather than show our true selves.

If we hide long enough, we can forget what we are hiding or that we ourselves are even hidden.  And, the longer we hide, the more fearful we become of revealing our true selves and our actual desires.  Eventually, who we are and what we want will no longer tolerate being hidden.  Feeling suffocated, it will find a way to escape and set us free.

Almost all our faults are more pardonable than the methods we resort to, to hide them.  – La Rochefoucauld

Let me put this into context with Lon’s story.  Before we started working together so he could accept who he was and what he really wanted, Lon suffered from great insecurity and couldn’t find the foundation of his own self-worth.  He was endlessly seeking validation and recognition, assuming that when he made a great fortune he would finally feel “free” to do what he wanted.  Meanwhile, his actual resources were being squandered in the intense activity that was necessary to keep searching for a sense of worth that no one could bestow upon him but himself.  Whatever praise or success he received was always insufficient because he viewed it with unworthy eyes.

Lon was driven in the name of ambition and the need to be accepted.  Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with wanting to work toward something or with wanting to belong.  The harm comes when ambition is used as a tool to solve feeling unworthy.  Or when the cost of being accepted is giving up who we are instead of entering true relationships that can affirm and enrich who we are.

The way our path unfolds depends upon which voices we listen to.  Do we adhere to the expectations of others or do we honor our unique desires?  Do we stay loyal to the voice that’s mapped our journey to a partnership with others we don’t respect or to the one that admits en route to the airport that we love eating dinner with our children, that we no longer want to travel for work?

Whether we stay our course or use one course to find another, the core question is: Why do we sometimes hear our soul whisper and sometimes ignore its shout?  But one thing is certain; it’s harder to hear your soul while hiding.

Hiding who we are is often predicated on a strong fear of what might happen.  We think, “If I show who I really am, I will be rejected or damaged or hurt.”   Or “If I tell my partners I don’t want to travel anymore, they will lose respect for me, leave me out of the next fundraise and I’m likely to earn less.” When we are able to listen clearly, we remember that being who we are is prompted by an inner urgency that won’t let us escape the moment at hand.  An inner voice informs us, “If I keep muffling this feeling, if I DON’T speak my truth, a part of me will die.”  So, we tell it, “Later, not now.” And it shows up again and again, nagging.  Or perhaps in the form of a crisis that demands our attention.

How do we know when to pull back and when to bring ourselves forward?  How do we know when to come out of hiding?  No one really knows.  But one act leads to the next and the reward for speaking our truth, even if alone or to a trusted friend or coach, is that such authentic speech clears an inner path by which we can discover and build the courage to reveal who we are, what we want and it will lead us to the life we long for.

If you are not yet certain how to speak that truth of who you are and what you want, or are afraid there is no way to get what you want in your work and are hiding parts of yourself or your desires, call me.  Let’s have a conversation about how to begin the journey to the life you long for and deserve.  It really is possible.  In fact, it’s essential.  And, you know it.  Don’t wait for your own version of a disaster to give you permission to own your life.

“The real work of our life is to be who we are everywhere – alone, in relationship, at work, and in public.” – Mark Nepo

Turning the Page

On a scale of 1 to 10, how was your year? How do you plan to make next year better?

I’m a stickler for completion. Completing tasks, conversations, relationships. Most of us are not taught how to make endings, to finish old business, so it doesn’t follow us into the New Year. We close the books on our businesses, and do year-end reviews with staff, but somehow doing the same work to actively turn the page in our lives and our careers evades us. I have a solution.

For many years, I’ve been following a simple process to gain perspective on the year as it ends and to intentionally choose what I want to pursue in the year ahead. Even more effective than New Years Resolutions (which are soon to be broken anyway and usually made without much reflection or planning), I’m looking for patterns, beliefs and circumstances so I can consciously opt into which I carry forward and which I leave behind as I step into a brand new year.

You know my mantra is Chase What Matters, Do What Counts and this periodic review is the way I hold myself accountable to continuously enhance my life and to winnow out that which doesn’t belong anymore.

It allows me to revisit the pleasures from the year which has passed and begin to make sense of the disappointments and challenges. Even more, it points the way to issues that I need to seek some help on for the year ahead so I can live the life I intend. This simple act of closure and completion has been a key part of refining how I run my business and how I lead my life. It’s a tool I come back to throughout the year, as a blueprint for decision making so I continue to align my choices with what matters.

I have a handy two page list of reflective questions that guides me through a gentle process to close the year with a sense of ease and to outline proactive action steps for the year ahead. It’s been invaluable to me. You can find my version here and adapt it for your own use.

I’m looking forward to spending time with you in the New Year and to being of service as you Chase What Matters to you.

Happy Holidays!

Reflective Questions to Contemplate as You Turn the Page

 

REFLECTIVE QUESTIONS TO CONTEMPLATE AS YOU TURN THE PAGE

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CLOSING THE BOOK ON 2018

  1. What did I embrace in 2018?
  2. What did I let go of in 2018?
  3. What changed for me in 2018?
  4. What did I discover about myself in 2018?
  5. What was I most grateful for in 2018?
  6. When did fear hold me back in 2018?
  7. Where did I demonstrate courage in 2018?
  8. What surprised me in 2018?
  9. What made me smile in 2018?
  10. What were my 3 most significant accomplishments in 2018? For each, list the following:
    1. The skills that helped me to make it happen
    2. How my life changed because of it
    3. What I learned about myself
    4. How did I celebrate/acknowledge (or, if I didn’t, how can I do it for future accomplishments)
  11. What were my 3 most significant challenges in 2018? There may be more than 3, use the ones that come to mind first.  They may have tested my limits, my patience or may be big or small.  For each, list the following:
    1. How did I deal with this challenge
    2. What new tools or allies did I uncover that I could use in the future
    3. How did my life change because of this challenge (even if it’s not yet concluded, what would feel good from the challenge in the end)
  12. What was my favorite moment of 2018? (Get in touch with the sights, smells, sounds, who was or wasn’t there, what was I doing, what made it amazing?)
  13. What were the gifts from 2018? What really stands out and mattered to me?
  14. Is there anything from 2018 that I need to still let go of, say goodbye to or forgive myself (or someone else for) or just need to empty onto the page?

Summarize 2018 in 3 words

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OPENING TO THE STORY YET TO BE WRITTEN FOR 2019

  1. What am I looking forward to in 2019?
  2. What am I feeling apprehensive about for the year ahead?
  3. What life lessons am I taking into 2019?
  4. What area of my life do I most want to develop in 2019?
  5. What part of myself do I long to nurture in 2019?
  6. Fast forward to December 2019.  I’m sitting in a café, musing over the last 12 months, where do I want to be …
    1. … in my work and wealth
    2. … in my relationships
    3. … in my free time and my sense of meaning
    4. … in my body and my home
  7. 3 unhelpful beliefs I’m ready to release
  8. 3 duties or commitments I’m ready to let go of
  9. 3 interests, skills or hobbies I’d like to learn or improve
  10. 3 things about myself I positively love
  11. 3 ways I could be kinder to my body this year
  12. 3 dreams to bring to life this year (personal or professional)
  13. How can I bring more of a sense of calm and grounding into my life this year?
  14. My secret wish for 2019 is …

 

My Blueprint for 2019:

This year will be the year I finally ….

I will nourish myself with …

I will make more time for …

I will recharge my batteries by …

I will open my heart to …

I will pay more attention to …

I will learn more about …

I will release my attachment to …

I will say no to …

I will say yes to …

And, because of this, in 2019, I will feel …

I fully believe in the possibilities that await me in 2019 and all that it holds for me.

Signed: _______________

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The Antidote to Burnout – It Isn’t What You Think It Is

“I’m burned out,” Mitch told me.  “Work shouldn’t suck this much.”

“How much SHOULD it suck?” I asked him.

I suggested he check out this humorous video about careers and burnout .  It would be funnier if you didn’t see yourself in it, right now.

Children dream about their futures, they imagine things they can do to effect change, to have fun.  They don’t voluntarily choose tedium and stress.  They know that work shouldn’t suck.  And, by the way, before you think to yourself that work isn’t supposed to be fun, research has shown that the opposite of play isn’t work, it’s depression.

My client, Mitch, was convinced that if he switched firms and made more money he would feel happy and engaged again.  Of course he would, for a little while.  But the story would continue to be the same one he’d lived through three prior firms.  Mitch’s stress was through the roof, he was sleeping less than 6 hours a night, felt frantic about finances and hadn’t had time for friends, let alone time for himself.  He was constantly doing triage and felt like everyone else was driving the direction of his life, not him.

I broke the news to him that if he didn’t dive into what was driving his burnout, it would follow him to his new firm.  Probably quicker than he even thought was possible.

“What do you mean ‘what’s driving my burnout”?  It’s the crazy people I work with and the fact I’m under appreciated and underpaid doing it.  That’s why I’ve gotta get out of here.”

“Perhaps,” I replied.  “But what will YOU do differently in your new firm?”

“I hear you.  But the first six months, I’ve gotta be head-down, really driving it hard to show them what I’ve got.  It’s gonna be a lot of ‘in the weeds’ work and then I can settle in and look at the stuff you’re talking about.  My family is cool with that.”

Work is where we can make ourselves, 

work is also where we can break ourselves.” — David Whyte

I’ve seen it for decades, how a move to a new firm with an increase in compensation actually does make clients happy.  Superficially happy.  For a short period of time.

Until the voice of their heart rises up again and says, “Are you kidding me?  We’re still doing this?” Then they think “If only …” they worked at another place, made more money, (you can fill in the blank) THEN they would be happy.  And they are, for another short period of time, until the voice speaks again.

HOW BURNOUT SNEAKS UP ON US

The 12 Phases of the Burnout Process were mapped by Herbert Freudenberger and Gail North (and not necessarily in this sequential order):

  1. Compulsion to Prove Oneself (turns into compulsion to work harder)
  2. Working Harder (to prove yourself, irreplaceability, doing it all)
  3. Neglecting Their Needs (no time and energy for anything but work)
  4. Displacement of Conflicts (inability to see yourself as the source – 1st physical symptoms begin to arise)
  5. Revision of Values (your job becomes your new value system, hobbies & friends and needs get sidelined)
  6. Denial of Emerging Problems (intolerance, aggression, sarcasm, talk about time pressure & stress as “status”)
  7. Withdrawal (social contact becomes minimal, isolation, alcohol or drug use increases)
  8. Obvious Behavioral Changes (along with rebuffing anyone who points out these changes)
  9. Depersonalization (self and others lose value, focus only on present time and future success, increasingly blunt)
  10. Inner Emptiness (in an effort to overcome this, an increase in addictive activity & exaggerated importance of work)
  11. Depression (exhausted, hopeless, indifferent & a sense that life is meaningless)
  12. Burnout Syndrome (collapse physically and emotionally, may have suicidal ideation as the only escape from the situation)
IS IT REALLY BURNOUT – OR IS IT SOMETHING ELSE?
 
One of the questions I’ve been asking clients lately is whether what they are feeling is actually burnout – meaning they are fully depleted – or if it’s really “boreout” – a loss of meaning or purposefulness.
 
The literature and research on burnout seem to focus on its origin as stress and overwork.  
 
Few of the people I talk to are actually physically exhausted from the actual work they do.  These same people would easily tackle in their leisure time much more arduous physical endeavors than those they do in their work lives – that is, if they allowed themselves to HAVE leisure time.
 
So, if they’re not actually exhausted by the work they do, what is draining the life force energy from these people?  It’s the constant effort it takes to ignore the internal questions …What’s the point?  How does what I’m doing even matter?
 
I’m not one to say that our work lives aren’t stressful, but in most instances I encounter, the sense of being overworked and stressed comes from a sense of disengagement with the WHY of their work.
 
Time and again, I encounter people who ask me “Is THIS all there is?” or who say “I should be happy, I mean, other people would kill to have this job and this life I have.”  And, often, they say – “If I’m going to give up this much of my life, then I damned well better make more money to keep doing it.” 
 
The stark absence of meaning from what they are doing rears up and begins to gnaw at them, fueling this sense of unhappiness that may eventually even lead to terminal cynicism – about work, about their industry.  In fact, often, about life in general and their cynicism that they even deserve to be happy.
 
SO, WHAT’S THE ANTIDOTE?
 
Research shows that the antidote to burnout (or boreout) is engagement.
 
Burnout manifests itself as symptoms of long term exhaustion and a diminished interest in work, in cynicism and inefficiency.  It is that state of melancholy and listlessness known as ennui.  The book Diagnose Boreout (by Peter Werder & Philippe Rothlin) calls out the absence of meaningful tasks, not stress, as what saps people.  There is little incentive for people to approach their clients or employers or patients and say to them “What’s the point of what you are asking me to do?  This is meaningless and it’s doing nothing to fulfill my potential or to improve the situations in life that most pain my heart.
 
When a person is left questioning the meaning of their action and feels inhibited to make a change, the characteristics of learned helplessness take over and he or she becomes listless, disengaged, the sense of powerlessness increases and THAT, not the work itself, causes the stress.  
 
Interestingly, “boreout” got almost no attention from the media.  Burnout became the buzzword that has taken over.  Entire approaches to reducing stress have focused for decades on attempting to alleviate the escalating burnout that is cascading across industries, generations and swaths of our workforce.  Urging us to work more efficiently, to acquire things or experiences to counteract the stress.  Entire industries are built upon servicing our burnout, instead of asking what’s really driving it and how to fix it.
 
The remedy for burnout is not changing firms, earning more money or taking a luxurious vacation somewhere.  It’s wholeheartedness. Reigniting the embers of meaning and purposefulness in your work and in your life.
 
Burnout is actually a form of depression – anger turned inward – because there is no available outlet for it to be externalized, for the person to say – “What you’re asking me to do is mindless, nonsensical and the talents and treasures I have are going to waste and I feel angry about that!
 
Enhancing the engagement of people in the work they do, really evaluating the meaning and utility of the work they are asked to do is what cures burnout.  Working on engaging the potential of each person in the company and affording them official recognition for their efforts.  The sense of belonging, an ability to recognize that what they contribute is giving something back and that their risks to make things better are recognized.  These are the values that, if left unmet or violated in one’s work leads to the frustration and sense of disillusionment that sets in and has been wrongly diagnosed as burnout.
 
The generally articulated worry is that attending to a sense of purposefulness will mean workers will stop doing what needs to be done.  Bullshit!  In his book Why We Work, Barry Schwartz reminds us that people are uniformly willing to do difficult, even boring, repetitive tasks if they see a benefit from their work.  Over time, we have been lulled to sleep in thinking that doing mindless, endless, meaningless work is justified because the sole benefit is that we get paid.  Not if we get paid and that only allows us to survive in monotony for another 10, 20, 30 years … all in the hopes that we will finally earn enough money and be able to do something meaningful when we retire.
 
It breaks my heart to hear someone say, “Well, I only have to do it for 7 1/2 more years and then I can retire and do what makes me happy.”  Are you kidding me?  That kind of life force tyranny wears away people’s souls and their hearts and traumatizes our children as they watch us and think that’s what their future holds.
 
REKINDLING THE EMBERS OF LOVE FOR YOUR WORK IS THE CURE
 
Gail Sheehan, in her book New Passages, coined the phrase Middlescence, as a period of second adulthood.  A time when we ponder the questions we faced first in adolescence … Who am I?  Where am I going?  Where do I belong?
 
We look again for the meaning of our life and ask the questions Where am I and what has it cost me to get here?  And, was it worth it?
 
The reason these questions arise is because there is a breeze that stirs the embers lying under this seemingly burned out core.  It’s not that we are burned out, used up, left as ashes.  It’s that we keep dumping ashes on top of our inner fire, smothering the embers, instead of feeding them good dry seasoned heartwood.
 
When a fire has used up all its fuel, what is left is simply ash, the burnt up remains – what was unable to be used.
 
That’s not where someone is who is asking the questions you are.  Or where Mitch is.  No, you are beginning to uncover the glowing embers that reside under the blanket of ash.  The embers are the partially burnt pieces of fuel and still contain usable energy.  Energy that is so deep in the center that the air and oxygen hasn’t yet reached it and caused combustion.
 
That’s why these questions are “burning” in you, nagging you day and night … Is THIS all there is? Your heart cannot believe that is true.  In fact, it will NOT believe it is true.  Even as you shovel another layer of ash upon it to quiet it.  No, there is a gust of wind that picks up a single ember, or maybe even a shower of embers and floats it to something new that will catch the flame.
 
THAT is where you need to put your attention.  On that single spark, the ember that is floating, for now, waiting to find dry tinder upon which to land.  Your spark is not gone – and it will not be put out.  Right now, it’s fueling your disillusionment and your inner anger that you haven’t yet vented.  The anger that’s turning itself inward into a form of depression we call burnout.  It may be that you don’t even HAVE to vent it; it will gain its flight somehow.
 
Embers remain for a long time even after it appears that a fire has died out.  They are the more constant and enduring form of heat.  Different forms of fuel catch fire and burn at different rates and different temperatures depending upon the amount of energy expended, upon the surface area exposed, upon the shape and size of the fuel.  The combustible heartwood of your life is ALWAYS around you, it just doesn’t burst into flame because they haven’t been exposed to the spark.
 
What can we do to heat you up?  To expose you to the things that will energize you.  I promise that when you are energized, that spark will reignite those embers lying dormant within you.
 
And then, with your heart on fire, you will be a mighty force to be reckoned with.
 
Burn, baby, burn.